I decided to kick the negative attitude. I can't control the things that happen, but I can control how I react. I have so many good things in my life to let a few things stand in the way. things were out of control for a little bit, but they're back to good....for the most part. this week was exhausting at work. Tonight was my first free night in the entire week. Mr. Soup went to go see Cornel West speak at UNT, so I made plans for dinner with a friend, but they fell through. I'm just chilling with Sampson and Maya. Some days it's nice to come home and relax with them. I love my students, but lately I've been overwhelmed with their problems, academically and personally. While Mr. Soup and I are anxious to start a family next year, I do love being a dog-mommy. I never have to worry about Sam or Maya using drugs. All I have to do is feed them, walk them and love them and they're pretty content. Plus they are adorable. I know Mr. Soup and I will have beautiful children, but Sam and Maya are as cute as can be!
I was talking to one of my co-workers and she mentioned how a lot of her students wrote essays on their new dad. The stories were all similar in plot in that they all started out with biological dad and mom together, fight ensues, mom takes kids/dad leaves, mom gets a new boyfriend and bam new dad. I thought this was really sad because you can't replace people. One of my students asked me how come I refer to my stepdaughter as my stepdaughter and not my daughter. I told her that my stepdaughter already has a mommy and I cannot replace her mom; I can only enhance her life. I do feel as though Abby is my daughter and sometimes (most of the time) I do not always agree with her mother's choices. However, I would never want to replace her as a mother. I am so thankful to have Abby in my life and to be part of hers. I think she benefits from having two families rather than one. I wish more families could see that. I wish my students' families could see that. Maybe it'd make their time at school a little more bearable if they knew they didn't have to choose between biological dad and new dad, etc.
Okay enough of that rant! So, Mr. Soup officially started his new job and officially has weekends off now! He booked our cruise and we're set to go! We're still trying to get stuff together for buying our first home. We keep going back and forth on where we want to buy. We love our area now. Great schools, shopping, parks, and restaurants. Plus, we can get to Uptown/Downtown pretty quickly. However, the homes over here are more expensive. We looked near where I work, and while we could get more house for less money, I'm just not in love with the area. Ugghhh...what to do! I am glad we're going through this process. I just have this feeling it's not going to work out, but Mr. Soup keeps reminding me that it will.
