Monday, July 27, 2009


I love that we finally have rain in TX. I'm a little bummed that it will be here all week, but I'll take it. However, I do not like that I have a cold in the summer. Why am I getting sick all of the sudden? I truly believe being away from the disgusting germs at my school is why. I built up such a great immune system working with germy kids and now I'm in such a clean environment constantly and my body has no resistance. Not to say my house is pristine and clean all the time, but it is most of the time. Ugh. I hate it. I slept away the afternoon. It was nice sleeping with my dogs, but I woke up still having that drunk groggy feeling and one massive headache.

Okay, so things I am thankful for today...
my check engine light---it's no longer on. Not sure if that's good, but I'll take it as a good sign
my family---having Abby here makes me realize how lucky I am to have the parents I do. I know it wasn't easy for my parents to raise biracial children, but they always made sure we knew our roots. My heart aches for Abby because she has such a skewed view of black people. There are like 3 black people in her hometown (including her) and they're all under the age of 20. I'm so glad my parents exposed me to my culture and to other cultures. I still had to deal with ignorance from family members and community members, but I was raised with the knowledge on how to recognize and handle it. I'm so blessed to have grown up with both of my parents to help me appreciate being black & white.
good friends near & far---I love catching up with friends via email, blog or even on the phone (so old fashioned lol) I emailed my friend Lara from college with questions I have on pregnancy and stuff (I know we're not ready now, but I like to start my research early). She gave me the most honest, non-judgmental responses. Her answers really displayed the confusion, love, and joy associated with motherhood. She brought so much peace to my heart. I knew Lara when were crazy college students preparing to become teachers. We finished our master's degree together and as I moved to Texas, she married and prepared to welcome her first daughter. She stepped into both roles in true Lara-fashion. She dove in and is probably one of the best mothers I know. She strives to create safe and healthy environment for her girls, but she is still real. I hope I can be half the mother she is!
My friend Tish out in Cali is doing some writing. She asked me to take a look at it. She probably doesn't realize that she feuled my desire to write. I've been writing daily and loving it. Working on a semi-biographical piece of fiction as we speak.
Sam---his cyst is gone. Little pissed that we spent so much damn money to get him tested, but glad it's gone and not bothering him. Glad the excessive diarrhea is gone. still waiting for the bad gas to go away. I better not hold my breath
A new church home---My friend Rachel suggested I attend church two weeks ago to see Bishop Jerry. I really enjoyed the service and when we went back again I felt so at home. I've struggled with finding a church home since I moved here. I think it's a church that Murad would like to attend with me as well (don't worry no conversion for him, but he appreciates hearing the Good Word and we want our children to raise our children as Lutherans)
Jessi---I'm so proud of my cousin Jessi. She sent me pictures of cakes she is decorating. She is really talented. She is doing the cakes for my cousin (and her brother) Willie's vow renewal. I'm trying to convince her to start her own business.


  1. oh my gosh, you are too sweet. i hope my kids think i'm as good to them as you make me sound! i'm glad you found a church home. when you're looking and looking and finally find one, i think it's such a relief! your parents did such a good job raising you and i know you will do the same for your babies!

  2. awww girlie i'm so glad my rants inspired. as for your pregnancy research i so want you to start reading read it, live it, learn it lol...and then read her book it sucked and then i cried. i've never read anything like this before. you will LOVE LOVE LOVE. can't wait to get your edits back lady!!!